Name: Erika From: WV Interests: rugby, football, marines, athletic training, friends, Tenn. University, …… I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. ~Phil. 4:13 I’m not the kind of person who just lets others walk all over them. If I think that’s what you’re doing I’m not going to just let it slide, I’m always going to do something about it. Be ready (;Tumblr (3.0; @airyboo94)http://airyboo94.tumblr.com/<p>Even though you were never here for me while I was growing up, I still wanted you there with me. Every little step I took was on my own. You were never there to guide me or tell me which way to go. You always stood back and laughed at my mistakes making them so much harder to overcome. Growing up on my own is the hardest thing to do. I need guidance and advice, someone to have my back and encourage me that I can do all things I try as long as I try as hard as I can. I need a shoulder to cry on and a hand to hold, someone to make me smile and someone I can cry with. I need my mother. A daughter is supposed to always be able to rely on their mother for anything they need help with, no matter if it&#8217;s big or small. Yes, I tried to come to you for advice and talk to you about my life, but all you did was shut me down and make me feel stupid, like I was worthless to you and meant nothing. When I was younger and needed help with my homework, you never helped me. You always said, &#8216;I don&#8217;t have time&#8217; or &#8216;maybe later&#8217;. When later came, all you would do is yell at me for not trying hard enough or not doing it on my own. You did a lot of thing to me that no child should ever have to endure. The emotional, physical, and mental pain you caused me will never fade away. It is going to stick with me for the rest of my life. The past couple years have been the worst&#8230; Since I am grown up now and understand things, I look back and see the things you did to me and wonder how I made it through it all. This past year was definitely one of the worst. I became so depressed. I cried myself to sleep most of the time. I started cutting a lot too. I would sit on my bedroom floor, rocking back and forth gasping for air as I cried, holding a blade to my wrist asking God why this was happening to me. I can&#8217;t help but wonder why you won&#8217;t be here to help me get ready for my prom, stand up and say, &#8221;that&#8217;s my girl&#8221;, when I walk across the stage at graduation, or even think about possibly attending my wedding someday. I just wish you would understand that I need you more than anything, but I know you won&#8217;t because you never have. I&#8217;ve told you so many times how much I need you in my life and you just walk away like I mean nothing to you. To this day I still don&#8217;t understand why this happens, but I know that God has and will help me through it and I am so grateful for that. I also know that from all of this hurt, I gain strength. My past has made me a stronger person. I know that I can overcome this someday and be able to possibly forget it all. 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